”Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
Every time I think about that portion of scripture I realize how much I really need God. I realize how much I rely on Him for strength. Not just physically but emotionally, spiritually and mentally. I haven’t written in months; and I’m almost ashamed to say this, but I lost all motivation to motivate others.
I couldn’t find the will to want to write. I was now that person searching for motivation; searching for inspiration; searching for whatever it is that we look for when we’re just riding the waves of life. So much has been going on for the past few months it’s almost like my flame had been extinguished…. “low key”. I say low key because I’ve had some days where I felt good, and I’ve been able to hide the way I’ve been feeling from most persons (thank God for friends who see through it all). As a result, I didn’t feel fit to encourage others while feeling so defeated.
As I’ve been riding the ’emotional roller-coaster’ I realized that something changed. I’ve been so busy trying to live for God and be this awesome motivator that I neglected what actually fueled all of it. My relationship with Him. I realized that my prayer life wasn’t as strong. My quiet time with the Lord became almost non-existent or a part of my ‘checklist’, and I became weak because I relied on my own strength.
I say all of that to stress this: You can’t pour into others if you’re not allowing God to pour into you. It doesn’t matter what you go through and how defeated you may feel. At the end of the day, when you lean on God you attain a newfound strength and an indescribable amount of courage to face whatever it is you’re facing. And finally, you don’t have to hide your weakness from others, even those who may look up to you, because through your transparency a testimony can be birthed.
So what has the Lord placed on your heart? Whatever it is, do it. Despite how you feel, take the first step. You’ll be surprised of how many persons end up being blessed.